Holiday’s are just another day anymore
Days that happen to drive me insane
in the days leading up to a holiday
things change for me and its only when
I begin snapping at my husband
that we sit down and talk
he says “I cant believe this is still so hard for you, but I get it.
and then we realize
“oh, Easter is coming”
Which this year also lands on my Grandpa’s birthday
AND April Fool’s Day
too bad none of this is a joke.
Have fun today
spending time with each other
and if i come up in conversation
please just bite your tongues.
You are all the reasons, that I am not there
and that I don’t bring my family around.
Today would be a “rose colored glasses-fake out” day anyways
i mean, for everyone except me.
the truth for me was always unavoidable.
slapping me in the face
surrounded by them
So it is nice to be here
I can stay in comfy clothes all day and cook
and spend it with my kids
who i don’t only love just for show
and they don’t deserve anything less
because today is a holiday
it is Easter
It is just another day.