During this journey of finding myself and growing I have read so much about different things and have dabbled in the twin flame and relationships realm of information and I guess I use that as a guide in a way. … Continue reading Love Can Find Me. I’m Done Looking.
I am a hostage. I was diagnosed with Bi Polar Disorder during a 36 day stay in rehab for drug addiction. That was over 10 years ago in 2009 and I will say that only now am I really learning … Continue reading A Hostage Situation.
I don’t know where to start but I do know that I avoid writing because I do not want to confront these real situations and feelings in my life. If you follow me on social media, you’ll see that I … Continue reading A shit show. Blo[g][po]etry.
Don’t ever let somebody, especially in a relationship, make you feel like your feelings aren’t valid. There is nothing worse than being in a relationship and feeling alienated from it. Sure, anybody can be overreactive at times and turn small … Continue reading Being Alone Is Better Than Not Being Heard.
Sadness fills my eyes and runs down my cheeks and pools beneath me in a bottomless void loneliness wraps its arms around me cold and empty my old friend broken pieces is what I feel like I have become mangled … Continue reading mood translated to words (I’m good)
Several times today on social media from various platforms, and different friends and acquaintances and people that I do not even know, a similar theme was arising. “I am nervous/scared that people will think (fill in the blank)…” …. “I … Continue reading Take the plunge! (with some sociological reference)
Here we are, the last and final day of 2019. That shit is wild! But it is also a good time to start over (as we can every single day anyways) but today start over with intent. This year I … Continue reading the last day to let it all go
I want to hate you so bad, but I can’t (ok we aren’t totally throwing it back that far but still) I honestly am so sad and let down and I realize it is because of the exhaustion that has … Continue reading Nobody- that’s who you are to me now.
I hate being on break currently- I am so bored I could die. My side job has been slow the last 2 weeks which I should be grateful for however, I am so bored! And maybe it would not be … Continue reading Avoidance and some fucking poetry
It is Toxic Tuesday across the board and I thought I might video today but I just don’t feel up to it so with that being said here we are. 2 things— 1- Don’t let toxic people or their words, … Continue reading Toxic Tuesday 6/26/2018
I haven’t been here in a while, seems to be my story lately. I have been productive just in other areas. But writing just seems to be on the back burner. I can’t bring myself to focus with the being … Continue reading I am broken–Not to be confused with un-fixable.
We ended up being able to spend a long weekend in my hometown and it was nice and really so very necessary. But then here we are. Back at this place. This house. The house we may lose before I even get to sell, which would mean we walk with nothing after this total shit show. I am feeling hopeless today. I move forward 2 steps and then get pushed back 10 steps instantly. I am grateful but like, not prepared to live in my car with 2 kids and 3 cats. Obviously I would never let that happen. I … Continue reading I need to be here way more often…