Depression creeps inLike an abandoned ship in the nightOver still watersThe forgotten one I feel aloneLike the shipGliding over glass like waterPossibly hauntedWhose to say? Here we areStillFreeAloneNot feeling powerfulAs we drift A crow lands upon the bow of the shipAloneBlacker than the nights skyThe sound it makes is wretchedFull of doom Where are we going?Nobody knowsAs we drift Will we end up safe?Will we end up alive?It’s a secret and a mysteryAll at once We float alongHelpless at the mercy of the waterThere is nothingWe are no whereWe just float along We come to an islandWe are the only … Continue reading Ghost Ship
The gunMy catThe gunMy headOver 3 years later The gunMy catThe gunMy head I see my precious boyCuddle him closelyWhile he purrs The gunMy cat You grabbed himAnd put it to his headYou’re sickThat was the end Over 3 years laterThe memories still flood me The gunMy headThe basementThe wallSleeping childrenSilent witnessesScreaming womanLaughing man Aluminum baseball batTapping on my headIn hopes to crush my skullAnd leave me dead The gunMy catThe gunMy brains Could have been all overThat basement floorWhat the fuck exactlyWas that TerrifiedThe most terrifying night of my lifeAs I truly believed that I would die I wonder … Continue reading Flashback
Ever since starting the Humira injection a few months ago for my autoimmune diseases, it has given me back parts of my life that I never knew existed. I have more energy and less pain and this has led me … Continue reading Self Love And Body Positivity.
Today was one for lessons and experiences, I will say that. I also will say that if I wasn’t strong in my sobriety, today could have been enough to break me and take everything from me that I have worked … Continue reading Today I Cleaned A Crack House…
How do you know when you’re wasting your time and energy with someone? Whether it be a friendship or a relationship. I feel like I should know the answer, I always tell you guys that I know something about a … Continue reading Shifting Focus Back To Self, Always. Necessary And Crucial!
This must be what it feels like when your soul is tired. I thought I had been there already but now I know that I am really there. It happened because there was a spark and a connection and reciprocation … Continue reading cathartic verbiage.
I am slowly meeting men and getting to know them. I am focusing more on connection and building friendships first. I am absolutely not trying to rush into another mistake. I think so many people rush into relationships for the … Continue reading Don’t Ever Settle, There’s No Reason To.
I am in this place where I am enjoying being alone but I also am yearning to not be. As a Libra, I am a lover and nurturer and I feel so taken for granted up to this point. I … Continue reading There’s Plenty Of Fish In The Fukushima Sea…
I wonder if it is true…. That if you cannot get somebody off of your mind, maybe it is because that is where they belong.. I want to know You. From the tip of your brain to the soles of … Continue reading You evoke from within me, poetry….
No lives matter until black lives matter!!!! Continue reading “All Lives Matter…”
I think sometimes we need to remember that its ok to let go and that something better is definitely coming. Its also ok to let go of our idea of how things are supposed to go or be. I have … Continue reading Patience Truly Is A Conquering Virtue.
How many of us keep ourselves in a perpetual place of self torture? Are you stuck in a relationship that is toxic because you can’t let go? Are you being taken advantage of by a family member but can’t set … Continue reading Stop Living In Perpetual Hell.