Sadness fills my eyes and runs down my cheeks and pools beneath me in a bottomless void loneliness wraps its arms around me cold and empty my old friend broken pieces is what I feel like I have become mangled … Continue reading mood translated to words (I’m good)
I totally understand the drive and motivation to find love and somebody to share your life with, I do! As a libra, I am not meant to be alone… but also at this point in my life I am realizing … Continue reading Self-Love Rant.
Last night my best friend and I went out for a girls night, which we have not done in almost a year! It was so necessary! We drank and talked and danced and laughed and ate! It was such an … Continue reading Necessity of Friends
I want to hate you so bad, but I can’t (ok we aren’t totally throwing it back that far but still) I honestly am so sad and let down and I realize it is because of the exhaustion that has … Continue reading Nobody- that’s who you are to me now.
I hate being on break currently- I am so bored I could die. My side job has been slow the last 2 weeks which I should be grateful for however, I am so bored! And maybe it would not be … Continue reading Avoidance and some fucking poetry
The thing about love, well there are many things, but some of the things are tough things. How do we learn to love others and love them well? Well that is the first tough part- we need to learn to … Continue reading love?…..w.t.f.?
My therapist says that I need to begin blogging again. Well we both agree that it is something that I should be doing, writing in general……… … Continue reading OK I’m back… and with even more tattoos…
I haven’t been here in a while, seems to be my story lately. I have been productive just in other areas. But writing just seems to be on the back burner. I can’t bring myself to focus with the being … Continue reading I am broken–Not to be confused with un-fixable.
We ended up being able to spend a long weekend in my hometown and it was nice and really so very necessary. But then here we are. Back at this place. This house. The house we may lose before I even get to sell, which would mean we walk with nothing after this total shit show. I am feeling hopeless today. I move forward 2 steps and then get pushed back 10 steps instantly. I am grateful but like, not prepared to live in my car with 2 kids and 3 cats. Obviously I would never let that happen. I … Continue reading I need to be here way more often…
The human experience– There’s levels to this shit. Happy. Sad. Amazing. Awful. Struggle. Ups. Downs. We have to experience the bad in order to appreciate the good and recognize the new. But it sucks when it’s bad, right? Especially when … Continue reading The Human Experience– Unfortunately.
If there is one major thing I would like to instill in my children and into others is that it so important to march to the beat of your own drum. Guess what? You only have one life. You should … Continue reading It all starts with self-love!
So many things are going to change and I am not sure that I am ready. I am filled with sadness, right now. I feel so bad for him. After everything. I loved him no matter what. I feel like a fool. Full of dread. I just feel lonely and sad and confused and lost worthless And at the same time, feel like I am an unstoppable force capable of anything. I feel defeated and discouraged And yet somehow remain hopeful And I have no idea where that is even coming from. I feel betrayed and let down … Continue reading this may be the night that my dreams might let me know….