I want to hate you so bad, but I can’t (ok we aren’t totally throwing it back that far but still) I honestly am so sad and let down and I realize it is because of the exhaustion that has … Continue reading Nobody- that’s who you are to me now.
I hate being on break currently- I am so bored I could die. My side job has been slow the last 2 weeks which I should be grateful for however, I am so bored! And maybe it would not be … Continue reading Avoidance and some fucking poetry
The thing about love, well there are many things, but some of the things are tough things. How do we learn to love others and love them well? Well that is the first tough part- we need to learn to … Continue reading love?…..w.t.f.?
My therapist says that I need to begin blogging again. Well we both agree that it is something that I should be doing, writing in general……… … Continue reading OK I’m back… and with even more tattoos…
It is Toxic Tuesday across the board and I thought I might video today but I just don’t feel up to it so with that being said here we are. 2 things— 1- Don’t let toxic people or their words, … Continue reading Toxic Tuesday 6/26/2018
I haven’t been here in a while, seems to be my story lately. I have been productive just in other areas. But writing just seems to be on the back burner. I can’t bring myself to focus with the being … Continue reading I am broken–Not to be confused with un-fixable.
We ended up being able to spend a long weekend in my hometown and it was nice and really so very necessary. But then here we are. Back at this place. This house. The house we may lose before I even get to sell, which would mean we walk with nothing after this total shit show. I am feeling hopeless today. I move forward 2 steps and then get pushed back 10 steps instantly. I am grateful but like, not prepared to live in my car with 2 kids and 3 cats. Obviously I would never let that happen. I … Continue reading I need to be here way more often…
Always progress over perfection!! There has to be no other option to maintain sanity in a totally insane brain and world. I finally did it, I slept in my bedroom last night. It was 4 weeks exactly that I have slept on the couch. It has been brutal. Of course I had nightmares which I knew would the case. My plan on getting down there was to do so as soon as I felt like I couldn’t physically keep myself awake anymore and that was so the case at like 11:30pm after having been awake for 14 hours. I laid … Continue reading Progress over Perfection & Intermittent Fasting.