Several times today on social media from various platforms, and different friends and acquaintances and people that I do not even know, a similar theme was arising. “I am nervous/scared that people will think (fill in the blank)…” …. “I … Continue reading Take the plunge! (with some sociological reference)
Last night my best friend and I went out for a girls night, which we have not done in almost a year! It was so necessary! We drank and talked and danced and laughed and ate! It was such an … Continue reading Necessity of Friends
Happy 2020. That’s wild! I am excited! New year new me? Not quite… New year– improving me! YES! Because if you aren’t improving yourself daily and growing daily then why the hell are you alive because you certainly aren’t living! … Continue reading Day 1
I want to hate you so bad, but I can’t (ok we aren’t totally throwing it back that far but still) I honestly am so sad and let down and I realize it is because of the exhaustion that has … Continue reading Nobody- that’s who you are to me now.
I hate being on break currently- I am so bored I could die. My side job has been slow the last 2 weeks which I should be grateful for however, I am so bored! And maybe it would not be … Continue reading Avoidance and some fucking poetry
It is Toxic Tuesday across the board and I thought I might video today but I just don’t feel up to it so with that being said here we are. 2 things— 1- Don’t let toxic people or their words, … Continue reading Toxic Tuesday 6/26/2018
I haven’t been here in a while, seems to be my story lately. I have been productive just in other areas. But writing just seems to be on the back burner. I can’t bring myself to focus with the being … Continue reading I am broken–Not to be confused with un-fixable.
We ended up being able to spend a long weekend in my hometown and it was nice and really so very necessary. But then here we are. Back at this place. This house. The house we may lose before I even get to sell, which would mean we walk with nothing after this total shit show. I am feeling hopeless today. I move forward 2 steps and then get pushed back 10 steps instantly. I am grateful but like, not prepared to live in my car with 2 kids and 3 cats. Obviously I would never let that happen. I … Continue reading I need to be here way more often…
Being alone has been something else. It has been so new and scary and exciting and peaceful. I certainly miss the 10 minutes of “me time” that I used to get every now and then and that no longer really exists for me until bed time every day. I am learning to become o.k. with this. Life has been moving so fast, probably mainly because the days have been moving fast. Now that my son is in his room every night at a decent time he is up in the morning early and whoa do I miss quiet solo mornings. … Continue reading I guess I just need a moment…
The human experience– There’s levels to this shit. Happy. Sad. Amazing. Awful. Struggle. Ups. Downs. We have to experience the bad in order to appreciate the good and recognize the new. But it sucks when it’s bad, right? Especially when … Continue reading The Human Experience– Unfortunately.
“Constantly torn between “If it’s meant to be, it will be” and “if you want it, go and get it.” !!!WOW!!!! FEELS!!!! am I right? But I think I have figured it out in a few ways. Number 1- Awareness. Complete and total awareness. Be totally aware of what your effort and energy is going into and in what way it is manifesting. This is a hard thing to learn because acceptance has to follow after and sometimes we do not want to accept the truth. So my thing is, I will put it out there to the universe whether … Continue reading Go get it. Let it be. Stay centered, regardless!
Life is truly what you make of it, regardless of your circumstances. This has taken me so long to learn. Like a good 25 years. I never wanted to believe that I had actual control over my destiny because my … Continue reading Life after shitty dealt hands does exist