so tired.

My heart is beating like its bleeding out… You’re sleeping like a baby….
Cardi’s new album is probably perfect for every situation.

 

Staying strong everyday when all I want to do is give up is the hardest thing I have ever experienced.

It is the actual summation of my life.

How on earth have I still made it without killing myself or being committed(again)?

I just want out. I just want it to end.

It has never ever been that easy.

How did I get here? and why?

I have many ideas. I am sure they all play a role.

But this can’t be how it ends or what defines me….

And I am so tired. Physically, mentally, emotionally and figuratively, so tired.

I am just totally and completely naive.

And totally lost and hopeless and helpless and scared and anxious and worried and sick and just a mess. I do not know what to do.

Just kind of waiting for some universal guidance.

Dear Universe or God or Aliens, whoever is listening–
I am ready for it. Please take control.

I have done all that I can do.

I am hungry for so much more in life.

I won’t settle for this.

Woke up so sick today,

Stress is literally killing me.

 

 

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